hide what you feel under a mask of smiles is tiring and the end can not do it anymore. And then explode. In two hours of unstoppable tears, with which you throw out everything you have inside. Suddenly you feel misunderstood and alone. Your head tells you that hundreds of people are going through your exact same difficulty, but the heart does not listen to the head in these cases, and it hurts.
I discovered angry and jealous. Angry with those who have decided what is happening to my mom and my family accordingly. It took me five years to figure it out. I do not accept. I can not. How can you watch your mother die? How can I stop thinking of wanting to pick up the phone to talk to her and not able to do it? How can I stop to envy those who can do all those simple things you do with your mom?
Last night I realized that I do not remember his voice.
I cried.
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